地址：http://archiveofourown.org/series/2491
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在选分类的时候才发现这文的kink出奇的少，而且因为没有具体H描写连Bottom/Top都没有，噫，你圈不是说好重口么。不过话说回来这篇还是有很重口的torture scenes的。
设定NFA十五年后，末日背景。我非常喜欢这文的一点就是它不像有的AU文一样偷懒地一上来就给你抛出一堆设定，这篇作者娓娓道来，一点一点让读者从完全摸不清头绪到慢慢了解这个世界观的具体内容和角色设定，这很考验写作功力和耐心。如果有人对这文有兴趣的话（有吗……）建议不要看底下的剧透自己看吧。
第一篇大致剧情就是Angel十五年后被powers抛弃，已经不再是一个champion并且也把shanshu签走了，于是来到传说中的中立hellmouth匹茨堡，想要签约成为魔法少女守护这里的人，作为代价他不能离开匹茨堡。
当他来到这里的时候没想到遇到了老熟人Lindsey，而后者的改变和付出的代价比他想象的还要更多。
很喜欢这段：
“I hate you, but you’re not you anymore,” Angel says quietly.
Lindsey closes his eyes briefly and inhales deeply. “Angel…” he sighs, but doesn’t know what he meant to say or ask, so he trails off.
Angel answers him anyway, in a voice that’s wretched and lost. “They were just done with me.”
“The Powers?” Lindsey asks after a moment of thought.
Angel nods. “They never gave a damn about anything except what I could do for them. And when I finished what they wanted me to do, that was it. They were done with me.”
Lindsey pushes himself into a sitting position. “Is that why you’re here?”
“Connor’s got a sane, normal life. Buffy’s never going to be ready for me. There’s an entire organization in place to support Faith in every way she needs.” Angel looks at Lindsey again, and even in the gloom of the shaded bedroom, Lindsey can see the weariness on Angel’s face. “I don’t have a place anymore.”
Lindsey remembers the first time he left L.A., ready, willing and eager to go back to simpler times. It was easier said than done. He didn’t even know what the fuck simple was anymore. He drove, aimless and lost, getting more tired and frustrated with each day, each mile. He had nothing to do, no one to be, and it was killing him slowly but surely, sucking the life out of him with every click of the odometer.
Then he met Eve, and he had a plan, a purpose, a role. There was something to do, someone to be, and it made his heart pound and his blood flow for the first time since drive out of L.A.
Lindsey’s body doesn’t do things like beat or flow anymore, not in the technical sense, but in the figurative sense, it’s been doing both since he got to Pittsburgh. He wants to tell Angel all of this, and opens his mouth to do exactly that.
What Lindsey says instead, is, “You didn’t happen to someone else; you happened to me.”
Angel leaves the room and closes the door behind him.
这个设定非常符合AtS的宗旨，you fight, you fail, and the you fight again, knowing everything sucks and you will never win and oh, wait, you can’t die. 我觉得Angel是个protector的主要原因是因为he gotta be, or else he wouldn’t know how to do with himself. But he really sucks at being one. 嘛……我对Angel的想法可以写一篇论文，还是就此打住吧。这篇的Lindsey和我想象的不太一样，但是他毕竟在canon里也被写得波动非常大，所以也可以接受。第一篇篇结尾也非常喜欢：
“I don’t want to *screw* you, Lindsey.”
It takes Lindsey a moment to catch the change of inflection, of emphasis, but when he does he goes very, very still. “Oh.”
“Yeah,” Angel breathes, and Lindsey can hear the tiny smile that he knows Angel is wearing.
僵尸Lindsey几场虐身非常爽，后面三篇就比较类似确立关系后的domestic fluff了，实在不愿意承认canon里那样的A和L还能这样谈恋爱，看得我有点腻歪，可看可不看吧就。
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